Throughout his four seasons as a cast member on Saturday Night Live, Pete Davidson has proved himself wholly unafraid to speak openly about his mental health on national television. For instance, in first-person bits on “Weekend Update” segments, Davidson has riffed on living with depression and borderline personality disorder (BPD). In a new interview with Variety, Davidson went even deeper, speaking about his past experience with suicidal …
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Pete Davidson Shares What It Was Like to Finally Get His BPD Diagnosis
People often describe feeling a sense of relief when they receive a mental health diagnosis after years of unexplained symptoms. Pete Davidson, who has borderline personality disorder (BPD), is one of them. In a conversation with Glenn Close for the Variety series Actors on Actors, Davidson spoke about what it was like to finally receive his BPD diagnosis in 2017. “I got diagnosed with BPD …
Read More »How Borderline Personality Disorder Therapy Helped My Approach to Creativity
I have borderline personality disorder (BPD). I’ve known for three years but before that, I was told I had bipolar disorder. This is a common mistake, apparently. I’ve had BPD most of my life, but I didn’t know until someone showed me a list of the symptoms. I looked at it and said, “Yep. Every one of those is me.” Since …
Read More »29 Ways People With Borderline Personality Disorder Self-Sabotage
Self-sabotage is something most people experience at one point or another — particularly if mental illness makes you feel unworthy or undeserving of good things. But for many folks with borderline personality disorder (BPD), self-sabotage can often be at the forefront of their lives. As Mighty contributor Sheridan Ashby, who lives with BPD, put it, Self-sabotaging (relationships, jobs, etc.) is a …
Read More »When Receiving the Proper Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis Takes a Long Time
I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD) in December 2016, at the age of 36. The diagnosis was bittersweet. I was happy to finally have someone recognize I have BPD, but if it wasn’t for my doctor I might have had help earlier, and maybe I’d be further along in my recovery. I can’t remember exactly when I first …
Read More »My Smile Hides the Fact That I’m Constantly Thinking About Suicide
I’ve had many psychologists not believe me when I talk about my mental health because I smile through it, I maintain good eye contact and I make sure I present well to whoever I’m seeing. In terms of a mental state exam, I’m perfectly fine — just going through a rough patch. Who would think the girl who is easily able …
Read More »6 Struggles You May Relate to If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is an emotionally exhausting mental illness that can affect anyone — though it often due to an unstable or abusive upbringing. It is something that affects me and my daily life. Living with BPD can be a struggle every day and sometimes you will feel like one one understands. So I wanted to talk about six things only people …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You Believe You Don’t Deserve Recovery
When I started seeing a therapist consistently for the first time ever, he identified the borderline personality disorder (BPD) traits that were wreaking havoc in my life and relationships. The first dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) skill he taught me was mindfulness. And it is a skill — a very powerful one at that. But it’s not a solution. I try …
Read More »How Undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder Stole My First Few Years of Being a Mom
The nursery was ready. Everything washed and smelled like baby powder. I felt like a nun in a nightclub — I was scared, but yet so excited! I was going to be a mom! But that faded quickly. When I held my daughter for the first time, anxiety overwhelmed me. It was not the emotion I was expecting. And it stuck around. …
Read More »I Have Borderline Personality Disorder, and I Can’t Remember What I Look Like
It took over a year of intensive therapy before I could admit it. In a quiet and almost afraid voice, I finally said it to my counselor: “I can’t remember what I look like.” We were knee deep in a 12-week treatment program for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). In therapy, we thoroughly brainstormed all the ways past trauma affected my …
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