In this rapidly evolving modern age, mental health conversations are becoming more normalized, acceptable and even encouraged in certain circles. Gone are the days of whispering the word “therapy” in hushed tones, or hiding mental health difficulties for fear of judgment or misunderstanding. Important conversations are taking place every day, and awareness of mental health conditions continues to develop steadily to help …
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How to Cope With Anxiety in Borderline Personality Disorder
Anxiety busting techniques can help transform you and how you move through the world. If you live with anxiety then this article is for you. I believe one of the most prevalent symptoms of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is anxiety. We are anxious about so much and part of learning how to deal with that anxiety is learning how to control …
Read More »When I Was Finally Diagnosed With Borderline Personality Disorder
I have been to multiple doctors, taken a cocktail of medications and participated in therapy for a year, but no one saw it. Despite my symptoms, the places I was receiving treatment from were so focused on getting me in and out the door that they failed to realize the truth behind my mental illness. So I did my own research, …
Read More »Just Because I Have Borderline Personality Disorder Doesn’t Mean Things Are Always My Fault
Here I am, six weeks post-breakup. Off work due to a nervous breakdown, my first in five years. I’m in psychoanalysis twice a week, and it’s the first time I have stuck with therapy long-term. I have been seeing my doctor for about two years, and he was the one who had to point out the relationship between my mood …
Read More »How the Ocean Is Like My Borderline Personality Disorder
Sometimes, when people look at me, I feel like it must be like looking out at the ocean from their hotel balcony. Everything looks calm. Steady. Stable. There aren’t even any waves. They don’t think about what lurks beneath the surface. Under that facade of calm and serenity, there are bloodthirsty sharks. There’s a riptide that doesn’t know how to …
Read More »What Happens After a Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis
I am realizing that with borderline personality disorder (BPD), there are various stages which we go through. First of all, there is the pre-diagnosed stage where we are acting out constantly from our impulses and “emotion minds.” This is where all the symptoms are strong and seemingly unexplainable. We may come off as erratic, dramatic, unpredictable, even a little “crazy” …
Read More »Why I Miss Being in a Psychiatric Ward
It sounds weird, right? Why would someone want to be deprived of their freedom? Why would someone want to be locked up away from the rest of the world? Why would someone want to stay in a strange place with a bunch of people they don’t know? As someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD) who also struggles greatly with self-harm, the …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You a Pathological ‘People Pleaser’
We all want to be loved and needed. I think that’s one of the core parts of being human. It is important to us. But when it becomes pathological, it can cause problems for us. Many people with borderline personality disorder (BPD) become huge people pleasers because they want to be loved and needed by everyone they come into contact with. …
Read More »The Nightmares I Have as Someone With Borderline Personality Disorder
Sometimes it feels like being haunted, but the ghosts are real people who exist. And are alive. Sometimes it’s not people. Sometimes I’m being chased by someone… or thing. Sometimes I’m yelling. I’m yelling at someone I love. I’m yelling at someone who left, or who might leave me, begging them not to go. Sometimes it’s someone who is long …
Read More »These Are the Intense Emotions of My Borderline Personality Disorder
She asks: But if your emotions are so intense, aren’t you? If you’re happy, are you extra happy? Yes, but happy doesn’t feel like happy. Happiness feels like the sun outside shining so bright and lucid that my eyes melt from my orbits and my skin gets red and turns to ashes and I collapse in a pile, burnt and melted. …
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