When You Don’t Know Which Version of You Is the Real You.

On a journey to finding and being myself, i made myself a step by step process and it’s going pretty good. The only problem is theres 3 different parts of myself and i don’t know which one to accept as the true me because i keep finding faults in each one of them i have the 1st extrocerted version where …

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18 ‘Red Flags’ That Might Mean You’re Struggling With ‘Quiet’ BPD

If you’re familiar with borderline personality disorder (BPD), you might also be familiar with a less-discussed manifestation of the condition — colloquially referred to as “quiet BPD.” Folks who live with quiet BPD experience many of the same hallmark symptoms of “classic” BPD, just in a way that’s not as obvious on the outside. While someone with classic BPD typically “acts …

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The Most Severe Personality Disorder Weakens Empathic Brain Activity

Why people with the most severe personality disorder find it difficult to have romantic relationships and friendships. People with borderline personality disorder have deficits in brain regions related to empathy, research finds. The finding helps explain why people with borderline personality disorder have unstable moods. They also often have trouble maintaining relationships with others. Dr Brian Haas, the study’s lead …

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Dear Society: No, I Don’t Need to Forgive My Abusers

I’ve been thinking about something that was said to me about “getting over” the sexual abuse and rape I endured and how I “need to forgive” and “put it behind me” and “stop being a victim.” • What is PTSD? I interpreted this as, “Shut up, and figure out how to accept and ingest all the blame and shame yourself, because it makes …

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How to Describe Borderline Personality Disorder for Those Who Don’t Understand

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a severe, complex illness that is marked by frequent mood changes, an unstable self-image and intense, unbalanced relationships. While this is the basic description for BPD, the complexity of this disorder is extreme. There are nine possible criteria for diagnosing BPD, but an individual only needs to present five of the nine criteria in order to be diagnosed. This means that there …

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How Will the #MeToo Movement Be Affected by the Amber Heard Case?

It seems like the entire world has watched the Johnny Depp vs. Amber Heard defamation trial over the past several weeks. And, after three long days of deliberation, the jury finally reached a verdict on Wednesday. While some are calling the results a “mixed verdict,” one thing is definitely true: the jury decided that Amber Heard “knew her claims of abuse were false” when …

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The Amber Heard/Johnny Depp Verdict Is in and the Winner Is… Nobody

The Johnny Depp vs. Amber Heard defamation trial has finally ended in a somewhat split verdict. While Depp won the larger settlement of $15 million in damages and Heard won $2 million in damages from her countersuit, the real winner in this farce of a trial is… nobody. • What is PTSD? I suppose the level of notoriety of the two …

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4 Celebrities With Borderline Personality Disorder Who Make Me Feel Seen

May is borderline personality disorder awareness month, and as someone who struggles with quiet/discouraged borderline personality disorder, I love spreading awareness and education on this personality disorder. There are still so many stereotypes and such a strong stigma following this mental health condition, but awareness is increasing. While there aren’t a plethora of borderline personality disorder activists or stars who have spoken out about their experiences with …

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We Need to Stop Shaming Borderline Personality Disorder

“If they’re borderline, you have to discredit half of what they say.” My jaw dropped as I heard these words from a fellow mental health professional. I had experienced caution expressed by peers regarding the aftermath it can have on someone’s life in legal and medical matters. I found this disturbing. Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a complex mental health condition affecting …

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Borderline Personality Disorder and the Double Bind

A primary characteristic of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is the struggle to maintain consistent connections to others and to oneself. Indeed, two of the defining characteristics of BPD as described in the DSM 5 are: “Identity disturbance…unstable self-image…” and “A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.” This volatility leads to communication patterns that have been …

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Borderline Personality Disorder and the Pain Paradox

As I recover from my recent surgery, I continue to experience periodic pain in my abdomen where the surgical incisions were made. The pain is not coming from the incisions, but seems to be coming from deep within my belly. Less than a week after the surgery, I was doing well, managing my post-op pain only with Tylenol, when the pain …

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There May Be 3 Types of Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is one of several personality disorders described in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM-5) by the American Psychiatric Association. BPD belongs to a group called “Cluster B” personality disorders, alongside antisocial, narcissistic, and histrionic personality disorders. These disorders are grouped together because they share common features of emotional dysregulation, alterations in sense of self, and a proclivity for erratic and dramatic cognition, behavior, and long-standing …

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I Don’t Want to Die. I Just Don’t Want to Exist.

I have suicidal thoughts, but I’m not suicidal. Yes, you read that correctly, and if you’ve ever been in that state of mind, you didn’t have to read that sentence twice. For those who haven’t, I’ll elaborate as best as I can. Not every day but on a pretty consistent basis, I imagine my death. Vividly. Even down to being found …

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