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To Whom It May Concern: I’m suicidal. And no, it’s not what you think. I am safe. I am not harming myself. I do not have a plan, and I do not plan on doing anything. But I’m suicidal. And I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t. People think of things like suicide in such black or white terms. But much …

I don’t know why am I writing this, I only need my feelings to let go. My fingertips felt sleep when my heart couldn’t resist the pain. Am I real? I’m agonizing. I saw a movie last night and it destroyed me, the gift of having multiplied emotions. Every word is like a knife in my neck and my blood …

I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), and upon hearing those words, my heart sunk. It couldn’t be me. When I thought of BPD, I thought of violent people who get angry at the drop of a hat and lash out at any little thing. That’s not like me at all — or is it? The more I researched BPD, the more …

I am a living, breathing human being. I am a person, a person who feels emotions deeply. I am a fighter: an overcomer. I face my borderline personality disorder day in and day out. I am a Christian, and fighting a mental disorder doesn’t make me less of one. I’m just trying to get myself through this thing called life, one day …

Today is a “down day.” Today is a bad mental health day. Today is a day I feel as if my heart is filled with nothing but hot air. There is no life in me, I just feel flat. I tell my loved ones today is not a good day for me and they, of course, ask me why. Why? …

“You’re crazy.” “What drugs are you on?” “Stop overreacting.” “Calm down, it’s not a big deal.” I’m sure many of us have heard at least one, but most likely all of these before. Those who say them may fail to realize the immense impact they have on a person with borderline personality disorder (BPD). But why do these words hurt so …

How do I put into words the humility I felt when I was taken away in handcuffs? No, I didn’t break the law. Yet, I walked through a room full of people with my hands behind my back with an officer holding my arm. I was at one of my lowest points. I told my psychiatrist I was contemplating suicide. …

September was Suicide Prevention Awareness Month. I must admit, I never thought too much about needing a month for prevention before. I realize now this thought process selfishly was because suicide wasn’t something that personally affected me. That was, until January 18, 2016. My good friend of 21 years died by suicide. I hope you noticed I didn’t say “committed suicide.” The …

To be diagnosed with any mental disorder and have your family doubt if it’s real is one of the toughest things someone could ever deal with. Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is difficult to deal with on its own. Emotional instability that manifests itself in unstable relationships and self-image, like you’re jumping from one extreme to another all the time. There is never …

On Saturday night, a new season of “Saturday Night Live” premiered, and comedian Pete Davidson took to the Weekend Update desk to talk about borderline personality disorder and depression. Davidson only recently opened up about his borderline personality disorder diagnosis on Marc Maron’s “WTF” podcast. “As some of you know, I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, a form of depression,” …

Borderline personality disorder — wow that’s a lot to take in. What does this mean? Am I “crazy”? I had no idea what BPD was before I got diagnosed. When I saw a doctor and reviewed the criteria, I easily matched up and there was no doubt in my mind it was the right diagnosis. Now everything makes a little …

After yet another emotion explosion in 2015, I finally decided enough was enough and sought clarification on why I felt such raging intensity, injustice and manipulation from those around me. The trigger? Probably the realization I was destroying everything I had worked so hard to achieve and the recognition of the self-destructive pattern I seemed to effortlessly follow in my …

I have been so hesitant to talk about this. The doctor said I had some, but not all of the characteristics of borderline personality disorder (BPD). However, I realize that just because I only have some of symptoms doesn’t mean I don’t have it. I think the same goes with a physical illness — if you have a few symptoms, …

Sometimes I feel numb and it scares me. If I can’t feel an extreme, I don’t feel alive. I’m afraid of not feeling. I only know how to feel with everything I have or not at all. There’s no in-between. I’ve spent enough time alone to determine that those moments of potential numbness are the areas that need to be …

I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), and I suddenly feel like I understand myself better. I’ve always felt like there were different versions of me in my head — the angry me, the depressive/anxious/suicidal me and the “normal” me (the one you all see). I feel like these different versions of me are all locked in their …