I recently read an article about how people with borderline personality disorder (BPD) develop an affinity for a “favorite person.” It was extremely accurate but also a bit disheartening. For those affected, being in love sometimes works differently than it does for other people. I latch on intensely and quickly and I probably enjoy and appreciate it more than anyone else …
Read More »Borderline Personality Disorder Is a Storm Inside Me
I’ve read a lot of articles and posts about how many people with borderline personality disorder (BPD) have quick changes in mood or emotion, often influenced by the smallest of events or moments in a day. This is very true in my life, and I find myself changing my mood and outlook on life almost hourly some days. What I …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You Believe You Don’t Deserve Recovery
When I started seeing a therapist consistently for the first time ever, he identified the borderline personality disorder (BPD) traits that were wreaking havoc in my life and relationships. The first dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) skill he taught me was mindfulness. And it is a skill — a very powerful one at that. But it’s not a solution. I try …
Read More »How I’m Healing After Losing My Daughter to Suicide
Two years ago, we sadly lost our daughter after a two year battle with borderline personality disorder (BPD) and failure of mental health services. She was only 22. It is impossible to describe the devastating effect it left on her family and friends. Two years on and I’m still unable to work and am highly suicidal, going through the fight …
Read More »21 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because You Had an Emotionally Abusive Mother
• What is Bipolar disorder? For many people, the word “mom” can conjure up a host of glowing adjectives — “nurturing,” “loving,” “selfless.” At least, those are the kinds of things we are taught to believe all mothers should be. But what if growing up, your mom was anything but? What if instead of loving and protecting you, your mother was emotionally …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You Think Suicide Is a Way to Get Attention
One of the worst things about my borderline personality disorder (BPD) is needing constant attention from people — because I am not able to validate myself. Without people’s attention, I feel worthless. There are times when I feel suicidal. I go through bleak periods when I feel so depressed that I just want to die so I don’t have to …
Read More »24 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because You’re a Suicidal Mama
“But you have so much to live for.” “How could you be so selfish?” “Think of your kids.” If you’re a parent who has struggled with suicidal thoughts, unfortunately the statements above might sound familiar. People are quick to judge those who are suicidal, and that judgment can be even more fierce when you are a parent. This can make …
Read More »Radio Host Delilah Shares News of Her Son’s Suicide
Radio host Delilah Rene, best known for her nightly radio song request and dedication program, announced on Saturday that her son, Zachariah, died by suicide early Tuesday morning. “He was being treated, counseled, and embraced fiercely by family and friends while battling depression for some time now. My heart is broken beyond repair and I can not fathom how to go on…but …
Read More »Please Don’t Share the 911 Audio From Chester Bennington’s Suicide
Please, please, don’t share the audio from the 911 call that was made after Chester Bennington’s suicide. I can’t believe we have to say this, but we do — after being obtained by TMZ, other news sites like InTouch Weekly and Fox News have been spreading around the audio, which features Bennington’s housekeeper and his driver calling 911 to report …
Read More »The Suicide Attempts That Go Unnoticed
When I was 13, I attempted suicide for the first time. Let me back up a bit, though. I grew up with a severe mental illness (bipolar II), which was complimented by extreme chronic migraines that would constantly lead to hospitalizations for pain management. It was an interesting way to enter my teen years when they both decided to manifest …
Read More »When You’re in the Gray Area of Being Suicidal
To Whom It May Concern: I’m suicidal. And no, it’s not what you think. I am safe. I am not harming myself. I do not have a plan, and I do not plan on doing anything. But I’m suicidal. And I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t. People think of things like suicide in such black or white terms. But much …
Read More »Thoughts: A Poem on Borderline Personality Disorder
I don’t know why am I writing this, I only need my feelings to let go. My fingertips felt sleep when my heart couldn’t resist the pain. Am I real? I’m agonizing. I saw a movie last night and it destroyed me, the gift of having multiplied emotions. Every word is like a knife in my neck and my blood …
Read More »When I Realized I Was Thankful for My Borderline Personality Diagnosis
I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), and upon hearing those words, my heart sunk. It couldn’t be me. When I thought of BPD, I thought of violent people who get angry at the drop of a hat and lash out at any little thing. That’s not like me at all — or is it? The more I researched BPD, the more …
Read More »I Am More Than Just Borderline Personality Disorder
I am a living, breathing human being. I am a person, a person who feels emotions deeply. I am a fighter: an overcomer. I face my borderline personality disorder day in and day out. I am a Christian, and fighting a mental disorder doesn’t make me less of one. I’m just trying to get myself through this thing called life, one day …
Read More »How I Feel on ‘Down Days’ When I Can’t Fight My BPD
Today is a “down day.” Today is a bad mental health day. Today is a day I feel as if my heart is filled with nothing but hot air. There is no life in me, I just feel flat. I tell my loved ones today is not a good day for me and they, of course, ask me why. Why? …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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