I don’t know how to casually like something. Whether it’s a book, TV show, musical artist or a creative activity, I will hyperfixate for a while and then usually drop it after a week or so. Sometimes, I’ll refocus my attention on it in a few months, or it will take a few years. Recently, I binge-watched about three seasons of BBC’s …
Read More »When Your Mental Illness Makes You Feel Like You’re ‘Too Much’ for Your Friends
There is a famous quote, or maybe it’s just super over-pinned on Pinterest, that says: “You will be ‘too much’ for some people. Too loud, too soft. Too this, too that. But you’ll always be perfect for the people who need you.” As someone has been dealing with mental illness for the past almost eight years of my life, this …
Read More »When a Psychologist Said I Was ‘Too Normal’ to Have Borderline Personality Disorder
After my first ever romantic relationship crumbled, I slowly became convinced I was struggling with borderline personality disorder. Everything fit into place. I begged my ex to stay because the thought of him leaving me felt so overwhelming. My relationship with my ex afterwards – not to mention my relationship with my parents, even my mother then dying of cancer …
Read More »Recognizing When My Logic ‘Switch’ Is Turned Off in BPD Episodes
If you are diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), it isn’t your fault. If you love someone with BPD, it isn’t your fault. I don’t believe people with BPD shouldn’t be held accountable for their actions. I know there is somewhat a “no-man’s land” with regards to accountability. Can someone really be held accountable for their actions if they have …
Read More »4 Reasons Why Showering Is Hard When You Have a Mental Illness
I believe I have a “high-functioning” mental illness. I’m able to force myself to shower every two to three days. There are a lot of people I know struggling with mental illness who go a week or more without showering. This is something I have found the rest of the world has trouble understanding. One I often heard from my …
Read More »16 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because You’re Emotionally ‘Numb’
What is “emotional numbness”? Mighty contributor Elizabeth Duff shared how she defines it in her piece, “When Depression Makes Me Numb, Not Sad” One symptom I wish more people understood is feeling numb. A sense of hollowness — like a dull, numb lump — often defines me when I’m really down. It’s a shitty, zombie state of gray flatness. Life passes by …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You Cry Over the ‘Weirdest Sh*t’
I’ll be the first person to admit I’m “nuts” (and I do say that affectionately, which is more than I can say about myself most days). It’s taken a while for me to be comfortable with my diagnoses. Actually, I use the term “comfortable” loosely. I can talk a real good game — I am a high school English teacher, …
Read More »Dealing With the Distorted Narrative of Borderline Personality Disorder
For me, having borderline personality disorder (BPD) means there is a constant running dialogue in my head that doesn’t belong to my true self. This voice tells me I’m ugly, I’m fat and unworthy of love. It tells me I look like a man or a troll and I should be ashamed of myself. This voice has me convinced that I …
Read More »What It’s Really Like Inside a Borderline Episode
In my experience, borderline personality disorder (BPD) still remains one of the most misunderstood and stigmatized mental illnesses in the DSM. Many just simply cannot understand what it’s like to live with the disorder and how truly debilitating it can become. My experience with BPD has left me unable to perform properly in the workplace for months and unable to leave my …
Read More »We Need to Talk About the Danger of Depression in Borderline Personality Disorder
Borderline personality disorder (BPD), also known emotional unstable personality disorder (EUPD), is one of the most stigmatized mental illnesses. BPD is already complicated due to the effect it has on one’s personality. One struggles with their identity because they often feel empty, or their emotions are so intense and change so frequently that their goals, choices and self-image are constantly changing, too. …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Is Your Biggest Bully
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is complicated and confusing. It’s like being stuck in the middle of the ocean with large waves constantly crashing over you and monsters lurking in the deep, seeking to pull you down. And the worst part is, you can see everyone around you floating with no problem. So why is it so difficult for you? For …
Read More »20 ‘Little’ Signs You’re Learning to Cope With Borderline Personality Disorder
When you live with borderline personality disorder (BPD), “recovery” can sometimes feel like an unattainable goal — especially if the yardstick you are using to measure your progress is just an absence of symptoms. But the reality is, recovery is usually an ongoing process, and often is more about learning to deal with symptoms rather than make them disappear completely. …
Read More »When You Doubt Your Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis
10 years after being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), I’m still not sure if the diagnosis is right, or if I’m simply another one of those lost and troublesome cases that are classified as “borderline” simply because they do not fit into any other category. That is why I deem myself a “borderline challenger.” “Borderline personality disorder” — I’ve …
Read More »SNL’s Pete Davidson Says He Has Borderline Personality Disorder
In an interview on Marc Maron’s “WTF” podcast, Saturday Night Live cast member Pete Davidson talked about being in rehab for marijuana use and revealed he was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Davidson, 23, has been open about using marijuana before, both to help his Crohn’s disease and recreationally. But the comedian told Maron his marijuana use was excessive and that he has smoked …
Read More »28 Reasons You Might Not Notice Your Friend’s Borderline Personality Disorder
We want to be there for our friends. After all, what are friends for? But sometimes, it can be difficult to understand, let alone recognize, when others are struggling with borderline personality disorder (BPD). Their symptoms may not make sense to you, and there is no one-size-fits-all guide that describes what signs to look for if you think someone you …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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