Borderline Personality Disorder

What a ‘High-Functioning Borderline’ Actually ‘Looks’ Like

Appearances can be deceiving; a big smile and makeup can hide days of non-stop crying, a toned body from hours of hard training for boxing can cancel out the effects of massive sugar binges, laser treatments kill the ongoing acne caused by overwhelming emotional stress. In this day and age, our choices of disguises are abundant. I am fortunate enough …

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How Loving With Borderline Personality Disorder Is Like an Unexpected Train

I recently read an article about how people with borderline personality disorder (BPD) develop an affinity for a “favorite person.” It was extremely accurate but also a bit disheartening. For those affected, being in love sometimes works differently than it does for other people. I latch on intensely and quickly and I probably enjoy and appreciate it more than anyone else …

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Thoughts: A Poem on Borderline Personality Disorder

I don’t know why am I writing this, I only need my feelings to let go. My fingertips felt sleep when my heart couldn’t resist the pain. Am I real? I’m agonizing. I saw a movie last night and it destroyed me, the gift of having multiplied emotions. Every word is like a knife in my neck and my blood …

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How I Struggled With My Identity After My Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis

Borderline personality disorder (BPD), categorized by emotional instability, impulsive behaviour, and cognitive distortions. The moment I was given that diagnosis my life changed forever, not for the better but for the earth-shattering worse. The stigma towards mental health is spoken about all too much but for all the good work people do, it doesn’t change. Everybody I cared about in my …

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7 Things You Learn About Yourself After a Borderline Personality Diagnosis

As someone who’s been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), I know it can be an intense daily roller coaster ride. But getting a diagnosis can lead to some important self-discoveries, too. Here some things you might learn about yourself after getting diagnosed with BPD: 1. You might have to accept most people won’t get it.  When you’re trying to explain …

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A Day in My Life With Borderline Personality Disorder

Quite often people have asked me what it is like living with my borderline personality disorder (BPD). They really have very little idea in regards to what it actually means. They are under the impression I am “borderline,” so I am “sort of” in the middle of having a personality disorder. Not a full blown disorder, but not quite “normal” …

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The Borderline Personality Disorder Symptom I Didn’t Know I Experienced

One of the symptoms of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is: “I have very suspicious ideas, and am even paranoid (falsely believe that others are plotting to cause me harm) at times; or I experience episodes under stress when I feel that I, other people, or the situation is somewhat unreal.” This symptom may at first glance look like it encompasses two …

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The Danger of Misdiagnosing ‘Quiet’ Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is often categorized — in short — as a mental illness where a person exhibits explosive anger, impulsive behaviors and unstable relationships with romantic partners, as well as friends and family. Due to the destructive nature of these symptoms, BPD has almost become a “bad word” in the mental health community. As a Master of Social Work (M.S.W.), I have come across professionals who won’t …

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Grief Through the Lens of Borderline Personality Disorder

One of the most significant ways my borderline personality disorder (BPD) affects me is through my thoughts surrounding abandonment and attachment. My unrelenting fear of ending up alone in a world where no one is who I need is something I’ve lived with for years and years, long before I received a diagnosis of BPD. Before I had any knowledge …

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5 Reasons BPD Can Make It Hard to Maintain Relationships

I am someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD). And, personally, this affects every aspect of my life — my education, my personal care, my behavior and most notably, my relationships with others. I am lucky enough to have a couple of close friends who stick by me and understand. But in my life, I have had friendships and relationships that have …

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