My husband has told me for years that I need to seek therapy for my sudden mood changes. Because I’d been experiencing these mood swings for years, they were a regular part of my life and I considered them normal. I know it sounds selfish, but I never considered their effect on those around me until one of my third …
Read More »Pete Davidson Dismisses Stereotype That People With BPD Can’t Be in Loving Relationships
On Monday, People reported that singer Ariana Grande and comedian Pete Davidson were dating. The news came after Grande broke up with Mac Miller, a relationship she called toxic after a Twitter user said it was “heartbreaking” she’d break up with someone who wrote songs about her. Some social media users then posted that Grande left a “toxic” relationship for a relationship with someone …
Read More »How I Remember Who I Am as Someone With Borderline Personality Disorder
Sometimes I forget who I am. I don’t mean that in some sort of grand, metaphorical sense. I mean I will sometimes forget what I care about or lose the thread of narrative in my life. I’ll wonder if I’m still the same person I was yesterday. Sometimes it feels like I’m not really me, as though my mind has …
Read More »Pete Davidson Responded to Trolls Saying He Can’t Date Because of Mental Illness
Pete Davidson is clearing up misconceptions about dating with mental illness. After some on Twitter suggested he was unable to be in a stable relationship because of his borderline personality disorder diagnosis, the Saturday Night Live star took to his Instagram Stories on Thursday with a PSA. “Normally I wouldn’t comment on something like this ’cause f/*ck you,” he wrote. “But I been hearing a lot …
Read More »What It’s Like To Date When You Have Borderline Personality Disorder
Living with mental illness is easier than it once was, but dating with mental illness? It’s so much harder than it should be — thanks to the myths and stigmas around it. When rumors that singer Ariana Grande is dating Saturday Night Live actor Pete Davidson began to circulate earlier this week, critics claimed that Davidson shouldn’t be dating at all because he’s …
Read More »When Borderline Personality Disorder Makes You Feel Numb
I am borderline. For me, what that means is that I react with emotions full-force, or not at all. Which is mostly the latter of the two. There is no in-between. All or nothing. Even when it’s nothing, I feel that absolutely to my core. This is the other side of the spectrum of borderline personality disorder (BPD) — the …
Read More »The ‘Harry Potter’ Quote That Speaks to Me as Someone With BPD
One of my favorite series of all time is the Harry Potter series — and for good reason. The “Harry Potter” books have taught me many life lessons from how one can find happiness in the darkest of times to how one’s future is not always what they were born into. But one of my favorite quotes that relates so much to my mental health is …
Read More »Why It’s Hard to Clean My Room When I’m Struggling With My Mental Health
Clothes and blankets cover my floor until I can no longer see the carpet. My bed is unmade. There are a couple half empty glasses on the nightstand. Papers and other miscellaneous things are strewn across my desk. This is what you might see if you walked into my room when it hasn’t been cleaned in a while. Most people would …
Read More »What ‘High-Functioning’ PTSD Looks Like
From the outside looking in, most people would never peg me as someone with a mental illness. I’ve run my own successful business for 13 years, have a big social media fan base, tons of great reviews, have been married to the same man who is my best friend for 19 years, love what I do, am passionate and vocal …
Read More »What It’s Like to Experience the Chronic ‘Emptiness’ of Borderline Personality Disorder
Among my circle of family, friends and loved ones, I am often the one people go to for the “big talks” about life, meaning, spirituality, purpose and other subjects that force us all to think about existence. I don’t mind taking on this role. On the contrary, I enjoy being the philosophical spider in my web of relations — think “Charlotte’s Web” but instead …
Read More »What It’s Like to Be a ‘High-Functioning’ Borderline
When you meet me, you would never know I have a mental health condition. The first inkling might be the numerous self-harm scars on my right arm, but even then they’re faded and old — they could be from years ago. There’s nothing to say I’m suffering now. And yet, here I am. I am cheery, I am engaged and I …
Read More »What I Wish They Saw Underneath My Borderline Personality Disorder Behaviors
Aside from struggling with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder (BPD), I sometimes struggle to see through all of the disorder to see myself as anything but another statistic, another local tragedy or another doomed martyr lined up to be sacrificed in the name of sanity. In a lot of ways, I feel like a number, whether it’s a patient number in an inpatient behavioral …
Read More »A Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis Isn’t the End of Your Story
In this rapidly evolving modern age, mental health conversations are becoming more normalized, acceptable and even encouraged in certain circles. Gone are the days of whispering the word “therapy” in hushed tones, or hiding mental health difficulties for fear of judgment or misunderstanding. Important conversations are taking place every day, and awareness of mental health conditions continues to develop steadily to help …
Read More »To the Husband With the Grateful Wife Living With Borderline Personality Disorder
To my husband, I’m watching you sleep right now. You seem to be at peace, having nice dreams and there’s even a smile on your face. You look five years younger than you normally do! But I know when you wake up, there will be stress in your eyes. You’ll be worried about me, like you’ve been every morning for …
Read More »How to Describe Borderline Personality Disorder for Those Who Don’t Understand
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a severe, complex illness that is marked by frequent mood changes, an unstable self-image and intense, unbalanced relationships. While this is the basic description for BPD, the complexity of this disorder is extreme. There are nine possible criteria for diagnosing BPD, but an individual only needs to present five of the nine criteria in order to be diagnosed. This means that there …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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How to Survive Christmas If You Live With Borderline Personality Disorder
“What’s the matter with you? It’s Christmas!” Heard that one a few too many times? …
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