I am someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD). And, personally, this affects every aspect of my life — my education, my personal care, my behavior and most notably, my relationships with others. I am lucky enough to have a couple of close friends who stick by me and understand. But in my life, I have had friendships and relationships that have come and gone because of how hard I find it is to maintain them with my BPD. Here are a few reasons why I find it hard:
1. I come on too strong.
Oftentimes, when meeting new people, I’ll immediately treat them like they’re close friends. This is because I am unable to gauge the level of attachment I have with this person, which often results in me being perceived as “overbearing.” I form attachments quickly and have a hard time letting them go. A relationship that may seem small or insignificant (a teacher, a colleague, even the barista at the local coffee shop) means a lot to me.